No Walls

So I wrote this earlier today when I was feeling really down after talking to some friends of mine about prom. I wanted to post it because I think that a lot of the time I like to show the good of me, I like to show what I know and what I'm really good at. I realize that I tent to try and give myself that "perfect person" image that I hate. So this is just a little taste of me in my down falls and where I struggle, because I'm not perfect.

"I know all the reasons for not dating in high school. I understand why it’s not a good idea, how I can get hurt, how I can hurt my future husband or the boy’s future wife, but I cant help feeling sometimes that I use that as an excuse. An excuse for why I don’t have a boyfriend why I’m not dating. Sometime I think that I use that as my way of protecting myself from the idea that I ‘m not dating anyone, because no one wants to date me. I’ve heard a million times how its not true how I’m pretty and how I’m a good person, but it doesn’t always help - actually it doesn’t ever help. I understand that not dating is a good thing, but the fact that no one would be interested sometimes feels like a slap in the face, especially for a girl with self of steam issues. And that’s how I REALLY feel right now."